(via archaic-beloved)
i just need to vent on the internet for a second. please don’t anyone try to talk to me about it i’m likely to ignore you
i met a boy last year.
i liked him, he kissed my best friend and she kissed back.
my mom tried to go on a date with the brother of the boy who ruined my life.
the boy i liked didn’t tell me about the kiss, neither did my friend until the day i was feeling really shitty.
i forgave them both within almost 24 hours.
i fell in love with said boy, but said boys relationship with my friend did not stop because qoute “he didn’t think we would last and was planning ahead” and qoute “she didn’t know what she was thinking”
once again forgave them both.
went through excruciating jealousy and was sad.
i have a friend who says she loves me more than anything, but why does it feel like everything is only ever about her and when i have problems and try to talk to her about them i feel guilty for even saying something yet i have to listen to it and try to care. i do care but when i’m angry its really hard for that to show through the anger.
i’m in love with a boy who i know won’t hurt me, but that does not erase the past.
i am friends with a girl who i know loves me and has good intentions but often fails to see a bigger picture than herself a lot.
i’m finding myself concerned with things like this a lot lately, its depressing, i want to get over my shit and everyone else to get over their shit so we can just graduate happy god damn it.
as i said please don’t talk to me about this, i need this, it may hurt but i need this.
ok sleepy time.
(Source: dancing-inthe-pouring-rain, via babyducks16)
sooooo they sort of kicked me out…..how does that make me feel?
it hurts…
sylvia
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I fancied you’d return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”
i’m not conceited or proud yet i hope
i think that what i have found is that i want some one to be interested in.
when i find that person i want to let them into my world because they are sort of interested in my life as i am theirs.
i then want to stay interested.
forget anger and jealousy
forget like or love
forget these shallow shortcomings
i want to be at peace with my friends and teachers and parents
i have started wanting more than what this world i live in consists of so i guess what i’m saying is should i move beyond it?
